I don’t know what to do on a computer anymore.
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For as long as I can remember, computers have been a creative hobby for me. As a kid, I “hacked” programs with ResEdit on Macintosh System 9. I wrote programs in C++ on a Palm Pilot and built apps in Chipmunk BASIC on our iMac G3. Through high school, college and my career I’ve always been working on some side project. Something I could get lost in, solving problems while building something I felt proud of.
One of my earliest personal websites (I had a geocities but can't find it)
That’s gone now. The robots have extinguished the spark. I still grab my laptop in downtime, only to stare at the desktop, unsure what to do with it. The curiosity, creativity and thrill of solving problems is gone. What's the point when you can build anything with a sentence?
It’s a weird feeling, a state of mourning almost. Losing a hobby, a part of me, that I’ve had since I was 12.
And to be honest, I’m starting to feel the same way in regards to maintaining and writing on this site. Not sure how much longer this blog will stay, I just don’t think the internet and tech is a place for me anymore.
It's good I have cycling, a sort of replacement hobby (that comes with social groups), but still, it hurts.